The Day Off

It's Mischa's last day of antibiotics today and I'm feeling a little generous to myself. This is why I have decided to indulge myself and I am holding nothing back. I have resolved to FEEL GOOD today despite  Kyle's constant badgering. So I put Bruno Mar's "Just the Way You Are" on loudspeaker as I step on the bathroom. I lathered on my facial scrub, body scrub, liquid soap, and bath & body oil never minding that I'd smell like a fruit salad on summer afternoon. I put on my old and ratty and very comfortable clothes; resisted to put on socks (it warms my cold feet); and I get ready to read that book I've been eyeing for days. I have no plans of going out today but that doesn't mean I can't put on a little make-up. So, I toned and moisturized and dolled myself with a little powder and gloss. I feel beautiful and it brings about a warm feeling within me.

Murphy's Law

Three sick kids and two hospitalizations in a month can really stretch your will power to the limit. I haven't slept since I can't remember when, been too worried that I started pigging out again (well, that's actually not the only reason), and I've encountered too many doctors this month for my liking ( don't get me wrong, I have nothing against doctors). I have been too stressed that I had my period three times in a month!

Realizations

When I first learned of Mischa's condition, my heart took consolation on the thought that we were given Mischa because God knew we were capable of loving her more than we thought possible. In my mind, it is a given fact that I will be the donor, should we push through with the liver transplant.

Hospital Gossip

You can't stay in a hospital for more than two weeks and not notice something. Like for example, in my mind I have conjured a hierarchy of hospital doctors. I figured the interns are the mini slaves of the residents. The residents, who are a little too obnoxious for my taste fall below the fellows. The fellows are like the personal assistants of the "real" doctors or the attending doctors, as some other people put it.