Mother's day recollections

It offends me sometimes when people judge me when I tell them I stay at home to take care of my kids. A few years back I would have judge another mom who chose to do what I do today. After all, my plan was to start a career and be quite successful in it.


It's true. I wasn't in love with the idea of being full time stay at home mom. I never expected for it to grow on me though. No, there were no climactic moments that made me turn 180 degrees and fall in love with motherhood in an instant. Fact is, motherhood and I had a long and slow courtship and it took more than a few highlights before I fell deeply into it. Mostly what earned my favor towards motherhood were the little things like my constant conversations with Kyle (believe me they can go on for days), seeing my Sophia explore (it often makes me wonder what she's thinking) and hear Mischa shriek with glee!

Sometimes, I wonder what it would have been like if I was pursuing a career instead. Would I have felt better about myself? Would I have been happier? And when I'm in the brink of thinking yes to these questions, I see my kids--I witness their laugh, their cry, their tantrums... their life. This alone can do wonders and melt my doubts away.

Some moms work and I know of some who are actually better parents because they pursue a career. Some parents give up on work to focus on the children. I'm not saying that one is better than the other because at the end of the day, what truly matters is that we raised good hearted and compassionate citizens.